hHmz not feeling to good again..nth 2 do with my health...juz...feel I'm losing control of certain areas in my life. Miraculously it's not studies this time, but relationships.

As in, things used to be nice & sweet, no sadness, no worries. I had God with me, my friends, my studies were doing fine...but you xie shi qing bu shi ni xiang yao jiu hui de dao. Take my maternal relatives for example..my mum juz told me my cousin's wedding ceremony would be on a sunday, but the dinner would be e next day. I'm sec4 this yr, not pri4..u don't expect me to skip sch rite. So equals 2 cannot go lah. What's the use of taking the ferry ride on Sun afternn den back at night mahz. But they're my closest cousins..sometimes I really wonder y is it so diff juz to meet them. We meet like once a yr or something. The most 3days in 365days. Aren't we pathetic.

Double blow today. Saw da ge online after so many mths. I was like "what, are my eyes playing tricks on me" when I saw his nick. It's really been a long time we sat down & had a nice talk..since last yr I guess. But I'm stubborn, sometimes feel a little angry with him, so I long took him as dead in my heart..hahaz. As expected, we didn't talk at all. His hp got cancelled & he doesn't have internet connection..how do u expect me to contact him. It's always the other way round. Juz don't understand y pple can be so unfeeling at times..we used to be best of pals..as if he was my real bro..discussing about anything under the sun. Now we're worse than strangers. Am I asking too much?..

People out there..don't put all your emotions at one place. Just worry for u tt once he/she leaves you'll be left emotionless.